It is with mixed feelings that I prepare(read wait) for my back surgery (lumbar laminectomy) on Thursday. On one hand I am having trouble waiting for the surgery as my leg and back pain continues to increase – “can I move the surgery to today?”. On the other hand I am well aware of how much I will be “out of commission” while I’m healing – I am not necessarily concerned with the direct pain, as the severe limitations on my activity that the healing will require.
One thing is certain, the prayers that were offered up for me by the congregation on Sunday during worship have had an wonderful impact. Even in the midst of the mixed feelings I am more at peace than I have been in a long time. That “peace that passes all understanding”. A peace that at times is startling and catches me off guard. Shouldn’t I be more anxious? Am I not being realistic? I’m simply praising God. I have been singing that song we sang Sunday in worship, More Love-More Power – See Link Below.
I am certain that God is in the process of doing “a new thing” in my life (Isaiah 43v19). Not simply healing the stenosis in the lumbar portion of my spine, but recreating me into more of who God created me to be. Re-creating how I am a husband, father, grandfather, son, friend, pastor – me.
I have been listening to Van Morrison’s “Till We Get The Healing Done” a lot lately. See the Link Below.
So with the power of the Holy Spirit I am ready for all the healing God has for me.